The sky's larger here, and closer somehow. Lost in its enormity, I hardly miss you at all. That ache's become a kite, flying low in and out of clouds, in and out of sun, poised high, string a melancholy thrum. Sometimes its shadow falls across my face, But I've grown used to that phenomenon as I move in and out of shadow, in and out of sun. All those poems say 'If ever I loved you' - but if? Surely there's no question there, it's when, when I loved you, and all the if is if the box is sealed, if the string is tied and delivered elsewhere or whether it sits close at hand, lid askew, with all those painful longings showing through.